::random ramblings::

I don't know how long has it been since i last posted something..but i'm sure it's long..haha. been very busy with so many things that i had to neglect this blog for a while..hoping that once everything is done..i will be able to write lots and lots of stuff..BUT..i don't know what to write! well i guess when you have sooo many things that you can talk about..it makes it even harder to decide..and you end up with nothing..sad isn't it? so i guess i'll start this 'new beginning' by writing anything that crosses my mind:

1. the exam is over now! I was a bit stressed up actually because I just sat for one online test last year..and this year the whole examination condition was really different and the anxiety was high! trust me..I couldn't even take my eyes off my notes for scared of forgotting what i have read..i know it sounds a bit nerdy and geek-ish..but this is the kind of anxiety that I feel whenever i am about to sit for exams..can't imagine what kids at schools feel given that they have to sit for numerous examinations.. *sigh* a change in the education system maybe?

2. now that the exam is over..i have started to feel nervous because i will start my practicum soon.. i'll be facing the real thing now..the actual platform for integrating all the knowledge and skills learned for the past five years.. will I be able to pull it off? will I be able to perform to my fullest? anxiety, anticipation, determination, doubt..all intertwined..creating a mixture of feelings that is hard to describe... plus, i'll be completing my degree really soon. I don't know how exactly do i feel about this..but I am actually a bit sad..I enjoyed my life as a student.. and I am definitely gonna miss my dear course mates as well as my wonderful new friends who have made my life even much more worth living..

3. the fun part: I have not felt so free and relaxed when I eat, chat, shop, etc. like I do now. I have been eating quite a lot lately..and I don't know why I keep on feeling hungry.. I guess it's good and it's bad at the same time..haha..BUT it's kinda good actually because before, I tended to rush through all these stuffs becasue EXAM and ASSIGNMENTS keep on appearing at the back of my head..clouding all my thoughts and hampering all my excitement..i know I am exaggerating but this clearly expresses what I felt..

There are many things that I want to share..so many things pouring into my thoughts right now.. and everything is mixed up! hahaha. so i will need to clear my mind and organize my thoughts and will write more soon! till then...